My son and I have moved into our new flat.  We are on the first floor and have a downstairs and an upstairs neighbour.  From my sofa near the lounge window I can see my downstairs neighbour leave her flat.  She doesn’t leave very often, but she does seem to have quite a strange routine. She leaves her flat with a wheelie suitcase at about 16:30 every day.  It is not a smart suitcase.  She is clearly not going away…

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Identity is a strange thing.  Who are we? And how do we fit into our societies? I am stamped with the single mother label.   I was thinking a bit about identity as I walked back home from my ex’s house having collected my son from him at 7:30 this morning.  So: I am a mother I am a single mother I am an employee I am a government employee I am a graduate I am young (well relatively, I…

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My ex and I met to discuss our family mediation topics last night. I requested that we meet.  I thought long and hard about this.  I didn’t really want to talk about things outside of family mediation for fear that he would get angry, shout and that the conversation would break down.  But then part of me thought that it was only fair and right to outline my position in advance of mediation.  You never know, he may even agree…

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I told you before about how I wanted to co-parent without a lawyer. I still do. My vision for the future does not involve protracted adversarial litigation and a bitter relationship with my ex, my co-parent. I feel my ex is pushing the boundaries of what is reasonable and fair and I certainly don’t believe that he is acting in the best interests of our son who is only 10 months old.  I went to see a family lawyer to…

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I’ve told you about how I had to ditch the groom to get the wedding day I wanted right? Well I now need to tell you about the (un-)wedding weekend I actually had. This was my ‘narrow escape’ weekend. To me the most important thing for a big event like a wedding, which, let us not forget is supposed to be a celebration of the fact that two people love each other and want to spend the rest of their…

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Everyone who knows my ex would describe him as polite and charming.  He knows how to make idle chit chat and how to perform in public.  At work, he comes across as dedicated, intelligent and professional. He earns a good wage.  I fear that no one understands why I have left, why I could not stay. My ex likes to have his own way.  He said he would ‘blame, begrudge and resent me for the rest of our lives’ if…

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I never wanted a big wedding, and I could never imagine myself in a big white wedding dress. I hate being the centre of attention and I find the idea of spending such huge sums of money in one day on a ‘fairy tale’ wedding quite galling. I got engaged to be married in Antigua in March 2014. I gave birth to my little baba in August. I started planning our wedding in about October. We were going to get…

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For those of you who are new to my blog, I have recently separated from the father of my son.  Our son is under a year old.  We are still living together (until Tuesday!) and I am trying, desperately, to keep things as amicable as possible.  Sometimes this is a real struggle, because my ex has quite a temper and tensions are running high in our house at the moment.    As you will all know, it was Father’s Day…

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We exchanged contracts on the sale of our house today.  My ex partner also exchanged contracts on the purchase of his new house.  We are due to complete at the end of the month.  Although I haven’t really appreciated it until this evening, today is a great day.  Today marks the start of the countdown.  A countdown until the day when our stressful, wearisome, tense, atmospheric and at times tempestuous co-habitation will finally end. 13.5 days 324 hours 19440 minutes…

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I am moving house in two weeks’ time and I have started sorting through my life. Yesterday I was sorting through some old photos and letters. I meandered down memory lane.   There were no recent photos or letters. My recent photos and emails are stored on the internet and in ‘clouds’. How do we make sure that the digital age doesn’t take away our memories?  How do we keep the digital gate across memory lane open? I found bundles…

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