I never really kept a diary when I was growing up.  I always used to have a notebook on the go but, looking back through them now, there is only the occasional diary entry.  There is a diary entry about how I felt when I kissed a girl in a nightclub as a student in France (tingly, excited and a little bit scared).  There is also an entry about how I felt bullied by my ex’s sister nearly a decade…

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The ancient Greeks had a working definition of “in your prime” which was around 43 years of age.  I am in my late thirties.  The idea of being on an upward trajectory over the next few years as I head towards middle age and my prime is really appealing. Unfortunately, biology and society tell me that I reached my prime was I was about 25.  At 25, I was super-fertile. My breasts were pert. My face was plump. My stomach…

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The most unexpected people believe in fairy-tales.  Often the firmest believers are otherwise intelligent and successful women who very often have been fortunate enough not to have had to deal with the shit that life dishes out. People like me believe in fairy-tales.  People like me watch horrific events unfold in the news.  People like me listen to podcasts of interviews with women about their life after the death of a partner.   People like me read an editorial in…

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Keep calm and carry on and the good old British stiff upper lip have their place place.  But when it comes to tragedy and terrorism, a stiff upper lip is not good enough.  We cannot just keep calm and carry on.  We need to talk. For the sake of the mental health of a generation, we need to share our feelings. News of the Manchester attack appeared in my Twitter feed before it broke on BBC breaking news.  I guess that’s…

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The mother of all Feminists, Simone de Beauvoir, famously wrote “one is not born, but rather becomes, a woman”.  In The Second Sex she describes how society conditions us to be become women at every stage in the journey of life.  Becoming a mother is also a journey.  We are conditioned to become mothers, but our conditioning is not just a societal one.  Becoming a mother is a physical, physiological, psychological, neurological, hormonal, emotional and societal experience. We are not…

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This is the rush hour of our lives.  We have children who need our focus and attention.  We have careers that need our energy, initiative and drive to really take off.  We have social commitments aplenty (hen and stag dos, weddings, divorce parties!) and we have the constant background hum of admin, chores, bills, mortgages and appointments. I feel as though I am driving at high speed in the fast lane of the motorway.  All I really want to do…

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I have been reading, watching and listening to a lot about mental health issues recently. I read Bryony Gordon’s Mad Girl in which she talks about her OCD, her depression, her bulimia and her anxiety.  Her style of writing is incredibly comical and it is not until you put the book down that you pause to consider the crippling effects of mental health issues.  Bryony Gordon describes her relationship with a violent boyfriend and how her low self-esteem, caused by…

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I’ve been feeling frazzled lately. What with a work/childcare schedule with no give or flexibility in it, a busy full time job and a whole heap of other things weighing on my mind there have been a few occasions recently when I have felt that it is all just too much. I have been feeling frazzled and needed to treat myself. Co-parenting, for all its drawbacks and believe me there are many, does give me the occasional time out. This weekend…

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I love a good podcast.  In fact podcasts have recently become a bit of an addiction. I look forward to my daily Podcast binge.  Whilst standing on a stuffy train on my commute to work Podcasts enable me to zone out and imagine that I am somewhere else and in conversation with some really interesting people.  I’m always on the look out for new and interesting podcasts and I’d love to hear your recommendations.  Here, in no particular order,  are…

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There are some curious goings on in the garages at the back of my flat. I like to keep an eye on what goes on in my block of flats.  I have told you about the wheelie-suitcase-wielding spinster who lives in the flat beneath me.  I think I also told you about the sexy guy who helped me carry the buggy down the stairs and then, just as I my teenage crush was beginning to blossom, he moved out. Behind…

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